Man's Greatest Folly

So I have ran into the great big obstacle, my biggest weakness, girls. You would figure, financial security, college, stress from day to day living would cause me to fret and walk around wondering what to do, but no its girls. Yay me!?!?

So I’ve discovered a huge problem right now. There are 3 girls in my life that I can see myself dating, one of which I don’t know if she is interested, the other two I know are interested, but I can’t be with one for two years. Haha! Just a small dilemma or maybe a big one? So are you confused yet?

Ok so lets go through on details then on each of the girls, this should be fun. OK so Tonya, not her real name, is almost exactly like me, she is feisty, likes to taunt me, likes to mess with me, doesn’t quite always understand me (then again who does?), and over the past year has grown quite close to me, but due to distance we can’t be together, and depending on college, might not ever be able to be with me. Fun! No? We know we like each other and want to be more then friends, but lets face it distance can hold things apart no matter how much charisma there is in a relationship. So for know she is just a really good friend I can talk to, a really really good friend. Move on you say? Sure!

So next we have Amber, I like that name. I work with amber at one of my jobs, talk for about 5-10 min a day with her, just idle banter back and forth. She is very pretty and probably has the most fabulous green eyes I have ever seen. I’m thinking she’s never had a relationship before, one outside of a quick crush. I asked her to go to a movie about a month and a half ago, she turned me down, says she doesn’t go to movies, which I saw instantly as a nice dodge and way out of turning me down and being nice. So I asked her to think about it, never got an answer and unfortunately I think it might be a-holeish to bring it up to her again. Through idle banter I found out that next year some time she will be moving down south with her family AND she has actually never seen a movie, so maybe not such a clever dodge but the whole truth (ya I have little self esteem and im an idiot, I’ve learned to live). So maybe start an idle, kinda casual relationship with her, nothing serious just something to help both of us pass the time and not be lonely? Then hope Tonya can come make my dreams sore? Ya this is getting fun!

Ok so on to Rudeth (lol it just sounded like a good name to joke about). She is another co-worker at a different job, except a little more complex here, yay! She has recently got over a divorce with an abusive husband and to boot shes 6 years older then me. At first I thought there was just some passing attraction to me, but recently I have seen otherwise (damn my perseptiveness). I like her, shes very dateable, I don’t know about a forever thing but she is cute, nice, and is scared to get into anything serious. My problem is mainly a moral one with her having a kid. I feel like if I were to date a mother, that making the kid part of my life would go hand in hand, I’ve had tonya beat it into my head that its not like that (once again im an idiot, and a stubborn one at that).

So then now that I’ve confused you and myself whatcha think? I know im confused all to hell. Tonya is deffenently my top pick, she is just so much like me its ALMOST weird, but shes different in conceivable ways. Amber would be my second choice, but im not sure if she likes me as more then a friend or someone to chat with once in a while, although she never did turn me down on that date, both Amber and Tonya are much closer to my age, and that much more likely to work out if it does get serious, based off of most relationship age differences at least. Rudeth is my third choice, but considering im surrounded by girls and I choose these three is remarkable especially considering im “farsided” and sometimes “blind” according to Tonya. Well writing it out helped some, a little atleast. Tata ;)